Bottom Of The Ocean * Miley Cyrus

It's been in the past for awhile
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you baby

It was real, It was right
But I burned to hot to survive
All that's left is
all these ashes

Where does the love go'
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together?
I had to know why, I
had to lose you
Now you'll just become
Like everything I'll never find, again
At the Bottom of the ocean

Dododo dodododo
dododo dododo
dododo dododo

In a dream you appear
for awhile you were here
So I keep sleeping
just to keep you with me

I draw a map,connect the dots
with all the memories that i got
what I'm missing
I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go'
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together?
I had to know why, I
had to lose you
Now you'll just become
Like everything I'll never find, again
At the Bottom of the ocean

This is it
let go
Breathe

You don't have to love me for me
oh baby ever understand
Just know I love the time that we both had
and I don't ever wanna se you sad
be happy
I don't wanna hold you
if you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
be happy

Dododo dodododo
be happy

Dododo dodododo
be happy

Wenn ihr wüsstet...

Ach wie gut dass keiner weiß, dass ich auf euch alle scheiß'!

Es gibt Dinge im Leben die unwichtig sind und unwichtig bleiben!

Und da gehört ihr ganz einfach dazu!

Niemand interessiert eure Meinung.

Niemanden.

So oft denke ich mir "Who Cares?"

Und da habt ihr die Antwort!

Nobody cares!

God Hates Us All by Hank Moody

einige von euch kennen sicherlich die serie "californication".

für mich persönlich ist es eine der besten serien seit langem!

ich liebe einfach alles daran.

ich finde es nur komisch dass überwiegend männer die serie schaun,

da auch genügend witzige situationen vorkommen über die auch wir mädels lachen können.

oder bin ich einfach nur zu versaut dafür?

auf jedem fall hat hank moody (gespielt von david duchovny) in der serie ein buch geschrieben

GOD HATES US ALL

seit längerer zeit kann man es auf amazon bestellen!

auf englisch natürlich!

und da ich ein rießen fan der serie bin, habe ich es mir natürlich bestellt und lese es momentan!

auf amazon steht:

A wry literary masterpiece, God Hates Us All is a coming-of-age tale for the apathetic generation. Hank Moody's self-loathing yet darkly likeable narrator is a college drop-out-turned-accidental-drug-dealer enveloped in a world of contradictions. His boss -- a bong-hitting, dreadlocked Pontiff figure -- runs a remarkably organized and ingenious illegal trade patronized by, among others, a sweater-set-wearing Upper East Sider, a Wall Street hotshot, and a wannabe rock star with a hard-to-resist model girlfriend. The lonely narrator yearns for more than the tenuous but intimate thread he shares with his clients. To escape his mother's desperate expectations, his father's endless disappointments, and his certifiably insane ex-girlfriend, he moves to the city's mecca of ambitious slackers -- the Chelsea Hotel -- where the pursuit of lust (and the rock star's girlfriend) sends him on a series of well-intentioned misadventures that lead him right back where he started. Told in a unique and subtle voice, God Hates Us All is ironic, optimistic, and unforgettable.

Lykke Li - Possibility

There's a possibility There's a possibility All that I had was all I gon' get There's a possibility There's a possibility All I gon get is gone with your step All I gon get is gone with your step  So tell me when you hear my heart stop, You're the only one who knows Tell me when you hear my silence There's a possibility I wouldn't know    Know that when you leave Know that when you leave By blood and by mean You walk like a thieve By blood and by mean I'll fall when you leave    So tell me when you hear my heart stop, You're the only one who knows Tell me when you hear my silence There's a possibility I wouldn't know   So tell me when my sigh is over You're the reason why I'm close Tell me when you hear me falling Theres a possibility It wouldn't show    By blood and by mean I fall when you leave By blood and by mean I follow your lead

Erdbeer/Birnen Slush

Gestern habe ich mal wieder den Mixer benutzt (:

Ich hatte total Lust auf Slush.

Deswegen hab ich einen Haufen Eiswürfel , ein paar Erdbeeren und eine Birne zusammen gemixt, und raus kam dieser SUPER leckere Slush.

Damits noch etwas intensiver geschmeckt hat, habe ich etwas Zitronen Saft und flüßigen Süßstoff mit rein (:

War echt fein!

Werd ich wohl die Tage noch einmal machen!!!!

das Leben

Lolly's verwandeln sich in Zigaretten. Die Unschuldigen werden zu Schlampen. Wasser wird gegen Wodka ausgetauscht. Erinnerst du dich, als Schutz bedeutete, einen Helm beim Fahrrad fahren zu tragen? Als die schlimmsten Sachen, die ein Mädchen von einem Jungen bekommen konnten, Läuse waren. Als Papa's Schultern der höchste Platz der Welt & Mama die größte Heldin war? Die Feinde unsere Geschwister waren, Krieg nur ein Kartenspiel war & das einzige Rauschgift, das wir kannten, Hustensaft war. Einen Rock zu tragen noch keine Schlampe sein hieß.Der größte Schmerz, den man fühlen konnte war, als man derbst auf die Fresse fiel & Abschiedsgrüße nur bis morgen galten. Erinnerst du dich noch? Und wir konnten es alle nicht erwarten, erwachsen zu werden...

ich fand den text so.. wahr. deswegen musste ichs mir gleich von meiner süßen neila kopieren.

gedankenchaos: statusnachrichten.

A friend will go up to your ex and ask why they dumped you. A best friend will go up to them and say, "It's because your gay isn't it?" :]

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I always wondered what love felt like. Then I met you. Best feeling ever. But, then again knowing that you don't love me back is the worst feeling ever.

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I'd like to say I don't miss you, I'd like to say I'm fine without you, I'd love to say I don't care about you, but I'm not one to lie (like you).

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When I say "You don't even care about me" it simply means "I need you"

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you can break my heart as much as you want. but ill still love you with ll the tiny broken pieces :(

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I some times wish u never came in to my life. Your just so much pain to me. I just wanna close my eyes n wake up with no memories of u in my life.

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I can't help but sit here and think about all the stupid stuff we've done together. I wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone else but you.

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You ripped my heart out Stepped on it threw it in a blender mixed it up and handed it back to me Thank you for hurting me :-(

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Is missing the one who makes her laugh, makes her smile and the one who doesn't make her feel lonely when he is around her i really miss u!

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You're my past, not my present, definitely not my future because you chose a life without me

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There are a million words I would like to say to you, but let me narrow it down to just three... I LOVE YOU

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Dont get angry on the person who broke ur trust get angry on urself coz u trusted that person

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Do you ever go through those days when you want to punch everyone who says everything is going to be okay?

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Thought we were meant to be, but apparently we were meant to say goodbye.

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If dreams were dreams, That would come true.

I wouldn't be here, I'd be there with you.

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When no ones around, she breaks down. They think shes so strong, but they've never seen her cry. Shes got everyone fooled.

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And its just so hard to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong

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It's not fair that I get to sit here and cry, while you walk around as if nothing ever happened

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You broke my heart into a million pieces and you still ask to be friends. Boy you have no clue how much its hurts that you don't care about me.

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Ignores all the other guys who wants her, because she's too busy noticing you.

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just when i think I'm nearly over you, your smile just hits the reset button

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I don't understand how I miss you so much or how I could love you so much it hurts and cry every night when your not here when you were never mine :'(

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I gave you my life...and yours didn't change...but I don't regret giving you my life...I regret that my life isn't enough to make yours better...

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One day you will seek love and be sorry that you threw mine away.

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sick of waiting around for you, when you're not even trying :(

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hurting inside and out ... but what do you do when the only person that can make you stop hurting is the one that hurt you

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"You're sorry"?! Tell that to the pieces of my heart as you walk over them on the way to the door!

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someday you'll see that i was the one who loved you the most.

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i love you, i lose you, you slip through my fingers like sand, and when i go back i wonder why you wont catch me again.!?

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You said you'd never break my heart you said you'd never make me cry you said you'd always be my friend so where are you now?

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What you did, has made me realize that I will never be the same. I will never be able to let anyone in.. At least not the way I let you in.

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I don't know what to do anymore You hurt me and I still come running, You forget about me But I can't forget about You, And you don't love me But I LOVE YOU!!

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I remember when you told me that you NEVER wanted to see me get hurt. So when you broke my heart and let me cry...did you close your eyes?

gedankenchaos

Ich sitz da. Und versteh seit Wochen die Welt nicht mehr, ich schreibe jetzt. Weil ich eh nichts mehr zu verlieren hab. Meine Kraft ist aufgebraucht und ich bin nicht mal mehr stark genug um zu weinen! Es tut nur noch weh, und dass jeden Tag mehr. Es wird immer schlimmer. Jede verdammte Minute. Jede verdammte Sekunde. Es gibt Menschen die meine Liebe nicht verdient haben. Es ist so unverständlich, wenn man sich zum allerersten mal einen Menschen komplett öffnet und ihm alles erzählt. Alles. Und man trotzdem so behandelt wird. Wenn dieser gewisse Mensch Sachen über einen weiß die man eigl niemals jemanden erzählen wollte und es letzt endlich doch tut. Weil man dachte, dieser ist anders. Dieser Mensch bleibt und hilft und fängt auf. Aber nein. Wiedermal habe ich gelernt dass man niemanden vertrauen darf, niemanden auser sich selbst. Aber was ist wenn man sich selbst nich wieder erkennt? Wer bleibt mir dann? Das einzigste was mich seit Wochen begleitet ist diese ständige Unruhe, dieses ständige Herzrasen. Dieser Schmerz. Jede Sekunde sterbe ich mehr. Meine Gedanken kreisen momentan nur um 2 Sachen. Um die ganze Scheiße hier... und um die Wohnung. In der ich hfftl endlich Ich sein kann, und mich wegen meiner Familie nicht verstellen muss. Ach, ist egal. Bin nur ich, mit mir kann mans ja machen. Wurde mir ja oft genug bewiesen. Wundert euch nicht. Egal. Auf wieder sehen.